Nfeeltraita's Last.fm Journal

Mama.....

Wed, 9 Jan 2013 22:07:33 +0000

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currently listening to boyz2men : mama. my mama. complex relationship. lotsa issues.love , hate, resentment, frustration. My mama professes undying love for me. my mama comes into my room unsmilingly and asks me to unburden my heart. but i dont be sharing my pain with no one who wont understand it any more.My mama. like Ginuwine said , maybe i'm just like my mama cos she's never satisfied. like DMX said "my father,my mother, i love em i hate em, wish i didnt have em but i thank God that He made em". Sometimes i wonder why it gotta be so hard.Wonder why the ones close to u sometimes hurt u the most, why we struggle to love. to relate. But i'm still thankful.

Nfeeltraita

Dont judge me...

Sat, 5 Jan 2013 15:19:26 +0000

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cliche yeah , but u really dont know a dude's pain, if u could walk in my shoes u'd know.

The 25th hour...

Thu, 3 Jan 2013 15:29:21 +0000

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had this lil confusion where i thought the 25th hour was the album by del and not the more correct 11th hour. but anyway, happy new year. the whole concept being how funny it is, that change usually comes at the last moment , just as u think all hope is lost. that's why a brother gotta hold on, cos change comes at the dying moment. i speak to myself here

Nfeeltraita

How much would u pay?

Mon, 3 Dec 2012 06:14:28 +0000

Experience aint cheap. how much would you pay to enroll into the school of hard knocks. how much do you think that lesson costs ? could you put a price tag on it?
in years? in tears? in money? in pain?
Count your blessings. cos even in losing you win(like loose kaynon said)Nfeeltraita

Wizards of waverly place.....

Thu, 1 Nov 2012 21:53:51 +0000

peeps be waverly. that's it. opinions sway. so i dont ever get caught up in opinions. cos people switch. master p was on some conscious ish some years ago and now he's dropping a gangster mixtape. plus different peeps opinions abound too. some say i do the runs some say i dont . clearly just a matter of choice huh>

The world is so beautiful tonight....

Thu, 1 Nov 2012 19:26:11 +0000

like the words of the backstreet boys. inspired by lines from how i met ur mother. humorously though. the world makes sense again. i'm sorry but it doesnt make sense. i need closure. i need the world to be normal again. it would make a world of difference

Hosiery....

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 01:26:17 +0000

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yall have to pardon my french on this one. But all i've been saying for half of today is niggaz is hos, like kendrick said "some of yall niggaz acting like hos". niggaz is just not dependable. they just pay lip service, they just front. nigs aint dedicated.
so this how we gon do this. aint a nigga who wasnt down with me in the trenches gon come back and find his place waiting for him anymore. cursed is he that trusteth in man. so noone is gonna come back after many years to take their place. if u're not down from day one, u're not down. period. I mean, it's already too late for some people. i've made it without yall. God took me through it. so keep ur opinions.
I'm stick with the tried and tested.

Nfeeltraita

Suicide Bounce...

Fri, 19 Oct 2012 19:10:34 +0000

Track by Nas on Street Disciple. featuring busta Rhymes though.
How songs bout depression, death, suicide and the like get a brother going.
One of my F the world days.
Again i reflect on a track on planet asia's pain language "Death frees every soul".
I remember a tribute to a deceased friend some one wrote"Death is freedom".
So says the suicidal creed. oh to be free and get to rest from this depression.
not having to conform to your standards. not having to put up with the BS.
Just flap my wings and fly away. Just soar. oh the bliss.
But then, think of all the people i'ma leave behind, and the pain and unanswered questions. and i think that that'll probably cause more problems than it solves and that ultimately death aint the solution.
And that's how i get the strength to carry on.......

Nfeeltraita

Sucide bounce nas ft busta rhymes

Follow your bliss...

Thu, 18 Oct 2012 18:18:28 +0000

Nothing new here folks, just move along there's nothing to see. just plain ole, simple me, revelling in simplicity. okay enough rhymes. talking bout an age old principle, reiterate in "the secret" DVD that i got so high on. Follow your heart mode nine said. that's cool but you could also follow your bliss too. if you got that longing . you got that loving feeling when you get something done, then why not just follow that bliss already. sheesh! world is an ugly place. more accurately, like Nas said on "Life is good", " the world is an addiction"

Nfeeltraita

The jenny jones makeover...

Thu, 18 Oct 2012 18:11:38 +0000

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okay i admit, i was going to wrap some fancy redman line about a makeover , but it turns out what he said was " you woke up with gorillas with a makeover" so there goes that. but anyway, i'm referencing the jenny jones makeover never having watched the show cos i wanna have a makeover of my whole wardrobe. my brother taunted me about it and after all is said and done i decided to get it done. fancy huh< yeah i think so too

Nfeeltraita